Sunday, July 31, 2011

An Exercise in Gratitude

So what am I up to?

It’s funny you know sometimes fate has its way of surprising you. I found work in the most unconventional way. I teach kids to write. I’m an English teacher for an ESL academy. It’s been two weeks and it still feels surreal. And when I still think about it, I still couldn’t help but get teary-eyed; it’s almost dreamlike.

I’m in my late twenties and I have this emptiness that has been bugging me for the longest time. No matter what I do, no matter how happy I get, I still get depressed.  I’ve been miserable all my life that no matter how hard I try to fight it, I always fail at it, miserably.

I went to mass a few weeks ago. I didn’t know what has gotten into me that I asked, really asked and prayed so hard that I get the teaching position I’m applying for. And I got it.

Madison; 10

My happiest moment so far in the academy is writing class. I like writing class because of the new teacher. She is very kind and she listens to me when I speak. When I study with her, I feel excited and she is a very good writer. I think I can learn many things in writing class. This is from Madison's journal entry, one of my brightest students (add very brat too).  

Amanda; 12
My most improved student :)

It’s been two weeks of journal checking, book and movie reviews. It’s been two weeks of nerve-wracking deadlines and lesson plans. Yes, two weeks that I’ve been a teacher, but still haven’t thought that I had it in me. 

And to cap off a very productive two weeks: 

Unbelievably cheap books which I bought last Friday.
All four books for only P150! I love you, Powerbooks sale!

A visit to Lola. 

The song “Hand in my Pocket” depicts exactly how I’m feeling right now. Yeah, I’m lost but I’m hopeful, baby. :)


  1. I hope you get through this feeling. *hugs*
    May you find happiness and fulfillment with this job. :)

  2. Welcome back mars! You deserve your job! :) When you're happy in what you're doing, you'll know its the right one for you! I'm (slowly) catching up on my Dexter reading addiction. Let me know when you need them already, hehe - as I am very slow : ) I miss you mars!

  3. I love that you are loving your job the same way as I am loving mine! :) I miss your blog posts so I'm here! I think I discovered something similar about us.. we love jobs that involve kids! :D I want to experience being one of your students! Maybe my eyes will pass as a Korean student! Hehehe. :D Miss you, Khristine!

  4. Pammy-cakes: Thanks! You've always been so nice! (and sweet too) I hope I get to meet you someday. *hugs back*

    Erin: I miss you more, sweetie! And thank you for taking good care of my babies. Haha. See you soon, I hope! ;)

    Judiya: Yep! Your eyes will do. Haha. I miss you, Judy! And thank you for checking up on me every once in a while. I really appreciate it. Cheers love! :)


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