Sunday, July 8, 2012

All Is Fair In Love And War

Jessica Lange is the epitome of a golden girl because she’s literally glowing at her age-- laugh lines, crow’s feet and all. She’s sophisticated, refined and witty. That’s why I love her.

I’ve been reading about power dressing and I’ve fancied myself wearing a power blazer and killer heels. Think about someone working for an insurance company but it doesn’t have to be a boring black and white ensemble. Anyways, since I’ve lost a significant amount of weight for the past couple of months, I need a major wardrobe update because all I’ve been wearing are oversized everything. I’m 28 and I think I’m ready for some big change. For years, I’ve shunned away from dressing what a normal working woman must look like. I hate dressing up like everyone else.

And this is me doing something out of the box.

I wrote this entry last March. I can’t even remember why I forgot to post this. Anyway, thinking about weight lost and power dressing made me smile. It made me feel like a grown-up. But, I’ve been gaining weight and I couldn’t even wear shoes with a 2-inch heel BECAUSE I’m pregnant!

A month after our Boracay shindig, I missed a period and it made us bought a couple of pregnancy kits because we’re excited? Ha-ha. We’re kind of expecting this. So after a series of peeing and peeking, I finally told the hubby, hugged him and cried because I was just so happy.     

But it doesn’t end there.

So a couple of weeks after that, I was crying again. Not because of morning sickness, but because I’ve been bleeding. I was so confused because it’s been positive all along but how come I’ve been experiencing pre-menstrual symptoms? We rushed to the hospital and the doctor told me that we have a month to wait if the baby would be strong enough to survive the contractions. So for a month, we waited anxiously. I’ve cried myself to sleep because I was just so scared.

And it was just a test of faith.

I’m on my 18 weeks now. I’m a vegetarian once more. Just a few weeks ago, my face was covered with perioral dermatitis. I couldn’t use organic facial products. I couldn’t even cry because my skin will go red. It’s hard being pregnant but hey I’m not complaining. 

Well, hello there! :)