Hello, Twenty Twelve!

I feel so sorry because I’ve totally neglected this blog. The past few months have been a hell of a roller coaster ride. You see, after my last post, I received a call from my boss in school; they want me to teach again because there’s a new camp (which means more students hence more teachers). It’s again, one of those “universe-conspiring” things that led me into doing what I do. It’s weird because we’re that close to getting rid of our nanny so I can just stay at home and take care of the kids. But since it’s just a temporary thing, I decided to accept the teaching gig instead. Money to save and of course, its teaching and I couldn’t resist it.

Similarly, I had another “universe-playing tricks on me” all over again. A year before last year, we had to take care of our little one because he contracted Rotavirus so we were confined inside the four corners of the room. It happened again. But the good thing about it is; he contracted a viral infection. Nothing serious, it’s not dengue although we got paranoid because his fever has been up-down for the last three days and he hasn’t been eating well, so a day after New Year’s Day, we went to Asian Hospital to have his blood checked. He’s okay now. A bit cranky but his appetite’s back. At this point, my husband and I were talking about what’s going to happen next New Year’s Eve and according to him, we must be outstandingly ready. Oh well, I think we’ll just stay in our house and do a major house sanitizing before New Year’s Day. Cleaning is like spiritual cleansing to me. So, yeah, I’m gonna be ready.

For 2011, I was thankful for a lot of things. I found a job that I love. I was able to meet new friends because of work. I’m grateful for free concerts and out of town trips. I’m thankful for friends, but moreover, I’m thankful for loyal friends. I’m starting to unearth my inner peace, although bit by bit, I’m getting there. I smiled a lot last year, not an easy thing to do especially when you’re a semi-neurotic freak like me, but still, I tried to be happy. I celebrated the best Christmas dinner. It was a stress-free and meatless pig-out feast. I couldn’t be any happier because I celebrated it with the most important people in my life.

I told myself last year that I’m gonna own 2011. It’s been a hell of a roller coaster ride-- ups-downs and everything in between. But I’m grateful, I really am. I’ve learned so much from last year and I resolve to make this year, if not the best, better than before.

I'm Officially A Mom Without A Nanny!

I have to start making puppets or if I get too lazy to make a DIY, I need to buy some soon. Polie’s crazy about his stuffed animals talking to each other (Mom and Dad do the talking, of course)! He’s growing up so fast and so smart! He knows what lotion to put on his arms and legs upon waking up, what vitamins to take at a certain time and oh, he already recognizes different colours too! In three months, it’ll be his birthday again. I already planned for his ‘multiple’ parties, just small celebrations with my family, Pao’s parents, and our friends. I can’t wait!

Christmas is just around the corner! It feels like the first time to be celebrating this season with my loved ones. I’m really looking forward to celebrating it with my family and our close friends.

Plus I’m officially a stay at home Mom without a nanny! I’m quitting work after months and months of deliberation. It’s hard, no, especially if your mind isn’t sane. It’s true what they say; being mom is still the best (and hardest) job in the world! But the feeling that you get from seeing your kids grow up and just being with them every single day is priceless.

Postcard Lovin'

I pride like myself for having the ability to forgive easily. I’m pride-less, really. It’ll always come to a point that when I’m being accused of something and even if it’s not entirely my fault (and have no fucking idea what it’s about), I’d still apologize for I don’t know “supposedly” my blunder or some sort. I tend to please people because I’m terrified of people being mad at me. But there comes a point in your life that you get tired, and then, you realize that there’s really no point of doing it. So you stick to those who matters and who always will. I suck at change but hey at least I’m doing something about it.

And I’m digging these random acts of kindness I’m getting; like overseas phone calls from one of my best friends and a random message from a person I used to stalk asking me if “everything’s alright” (totally unlikely). Oh yes! Random things make me happy.   

I love getting postcards (and letters too)! If you’re a stranger in a faraway land, send me some postcard love and I promise to write back. We can talk about books, arts, music and food (or the beach and night skies)! I never had pen pals overseas; you’ll make the inner child in me truly happy. Leave a comment here with your email and postal address or shoot me an email. Thank you so much in advance! 

100 Day Photo Challenge: Day 29

What makes me smile?

Saturday mornings with the kids.

And grocery shopping with the hubby. :)

100 Day Photo Challenge: Day 28

Day 28: Something you're afraid of
(w/ 6mo old Polie)

I’m not afraid of failure, actually, I’m soooo used to it already. I’m afraid of feeling that I’m a failure as a mother. I had to work ASAP after giving birth to Polie because we need all the financial backing I could get from my job. He was barely 2mos old when I decided to go back to work. He’s 1 yr and 8mos now and I still lack confidence if I’m being a good mom to him. Some days are really hard (like today); it’s frustrating and depressing to see that he’d rather be with his yaya than be with me. I don’t know but it was so much easier when I was younger (or maybe because I have no yaya that time to feel so insecure about). Baby steps, I know I’m getting there!

Everyday Is A Bad Hair Day

I was supposed to get a haircut last week but hubby insisted that I leave my hair alone. I’ve been meaning to grow my hair long but it’s so difficult to resist the urge to cut it. I’ve always had short hair all my life, believe me, I’m in pain. I know that he’s longing to see me with long lustrous hair but he’s just too shy to admit it. So once more I’m giving it a try (for the nth time).

Wish me luck because I’m not really good in keeping the scissors at bay! 

Just A Thought And Some

We went out last Saturday to run some errands, do our groceries and attend mass. It’s been long since we did that, all four of us. The officiating priest in Puregold Molito was telling us about “proper dress code”. Amusing because the mass is inside a mall; it’s Saturday and a lot of people who attended the mass just wore shorts and I mean not just “shorts”, theirs are skimpy short-shorts. I know it’s inside a mall but just a little thought; you’re attending a mass, you’re not going to the beach! Yes, we know that you want to attend mass but you could have sat at the back! Dress accordingly for fuck’s sake! I really hate it when people do that.

So we went home, had some an assortment of chips, watched a crappy movie while I ate a BIG bar of chocolate and slept like a baby. The following day was spent cleaning the house, cooking meals, sleeping in between, reading history books about Europe, eating and watching reruns of our favorite TV shows. I know it’s boring but I miss boring. Being dull consoles my chaotic brain. So it’s good to be a bore every once in awhile; it works for me. 

Here’s the pair of glasses that I bought from Paterno Eyewear last Saturday at Cuenca Bazaar. I bought this instead of the Owl frames because it’s kind of small for my face. Its lacquered red, it has gold hinges, very chic, vintage looking and it is lightweight too! I love it! Plus I got them for only P600! The seller’s generous enough to slash P50 off its price because she didn’t have exact change. It’s hard to resist the urge to buy more because they sell the most gorgeous vintage looking eyewear at a fraction of the cost compared to the ones being sold in malls. Check out their Multiply site and look for Ms. Pia. 

Peek-a-boo I see you! :)

Polie wearing Mommy's glasses: ADORKABLE!

I bought a pair of shoes from Renegade Folk's clearance sale. Sadly, the shoes I bought run a size smaller. But I read somewhere about freezing leather shoes. I tried it and it worked! Plus I forced the boys to wear the shoes around the house for a day. Ha-ha! Talk about ingenuity, eh? So that’s how my weekend went. Boring and oh-so-great!

Fits me perfectly! (Pardon the jammies)